Things are finally starting to look up. After having my counts make a minor jump from 0.0 WBC and then falling back to 0 for a few days, I wasn't doing so well. This place makes me stir crazy and I had a panic attack the other night - not pretty. I'm ok falling asleep but if I wake up, then I have to calm myself down all over. ABBA's Mama mia helps but I listened to it for nearly 4 hours the other night. However, I think my team has come up with a solution which involves Ativan every 6 hours through IV and then another sleeping pill only at night. We started it today and I already feel calmer.
The other bothersome thing is that my vision starting blurring the other day so I can't read, watch tv, play games, mess with my iPad or do much of anything which I'm sure didn't help the anxiety. We saw the Ophtamologist yesterday and they thought the vision would improve on its own as the WBC improved - so disappointed. However today, I looked up at the tv guide and could READ!! It's not perfect but I can watch tv and see the computer.
I've also had a good afternoon - took a couple of walks and found the exercise bike and i feel like i have a little more energy. What a good day in the end. Praise God!